Why Blog? Today's Thoughts

I am not quite sure why I am blogging! I want to write. I know that much. What do I want to write about? Well, honestly I am not sure. At this point I figure its a way to express thoughts, ideas and life's daily happenings. After that, who knows.

Thoughts for today rest with my friend Traci. She is going in for a double mastectomy on Saturday. We have all been praying for her for three months. I find it surprising how deeply someone else's hardship can touch others. For me it was a profound sense of sadness. I cried for an entire day about how unfair it felt that this was happening to her. Not only is she loosing an important part of her womanhood but her ability to reproduce. Traci wanted so badly to have a sibling for N. After her surgery she will not have to undergo chemo but, she will have to take drugs that will put her into early menopause. My sadness for her is over the loss of hope. The dream of carrying a child in her womb. Nursing that child to health and happiness. Watching that baby grow and learn. Interact with with it's big brother.

I pray her surgery goes well. I pray the Lord is with the doctors and nurses. I pray that He not only restores her body but also any parts of her spirit that may feel broken. I pray that if she feels her family should still grow, that the Lord reveal His will to her.