With the birth of a child comes upheaval for Mom. I am so grateful he is in our family. I can't stress that enough. However there is something about the whole pregnancy / post partum thing that really throws me through a loop. I have been searching my soul, wondering what's next? Lots of things running through my brain. Should I go back to work? Go back to school? More triathlons? Climb a mountain? Reunite with my Savior? Write more? Plan more small outings that give me something to look forward to? All of the above?
Over the past year I have really drifted away from my relationship with the Lord. Oh how I miss my Jesus. Asking the Lord back into my heart has been a wonderful first step to understanding my greater purpose. Back to church regularly, praying, bible study is the right start.
I have been dreaming about going back to work. Purely for selfish reasons. I miss having my own identity outside of the home. I miss having other things to think about other than when to do laundry, clean the bathroom, cub scouts, soccer, baseball, etc etc. Dont get me wrong, I am SO SO grateful I CAN stay home. I just feel restless. Maybe bored and lonely with the tedium of childrearing. I am trying to prayerfully understand these feelings.
The boys are doing great. Luke is in first grade. He is smart and such a deep thinker. Last week his teacher asked the kids to do a report on their hero. Without any prompting from us, Luke chose God as his hero. He says 'Mom God is the only one who should be my hero'. I was floored. He had to present his report in front of the class. Apparently it started a buzz. I am so proud of him I could burst. His teacher adores him. She believes he will being testing for he GATE program next year. Luke started cub scouts in October. He is so enthusiastic about his cub scout duties. He sold popcorn with zeal. When receiving his bobcat badge he snatched microphone out of the cubmasters hands and recited the pack law.
Wyatt is doing really well too. He loves preschool. I am impressed with how all of a sudden he seems to be excelling with his letters. Over the summer he learned how to swim. He f inally decided to ride a bike. After about a month of training wheels he requested that we take them off. Away he went!! Crazy. When that kid decides he wants to do something, he goes for it. It's great. I can't believe I will be signing him up for kindergarten in a couple weeks.
Brody is four months old. He is a great baby. I always heard that there was such thing as an easy baby... :) He sleeps well, is easy to calm and quick to smile. He is 14.5 lbs and 26 inches long. He has these incredibly big feet. I forgot what it was like having a baby around. We are truly enjoying every minute of his infancy. So sweet.
All in all, life is good!!!
1 comments:
I'm so glad your boys are doing so well! I completely understand the wanting to work thing...I was there for a long time too and last May, I was so lucky to be offered a "temporary" position with our Student Ministries department at our church. It was to be a 3-6 month (at most) job and yet, I'm still there. It's only part time which allows me to still be there for all the sports practices, events & cub scouts, but enough that I'm out of the house a little bit. Definitely not the corporate environment I was once used to, but it's really flexible, which is exactly what I need with the boys still young.
Good luck with whatever you decide.
Take care,
Jessica (from the old TLOL)
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